The Start of a New Year

Everyone usually seems to be excited about starting a new year....its like fresh start. I'm one of those people to a point.The way my 2010 ended it seemed I had lost half of who I was when my sister and I finished our biggest fight we have seen yet. But after a few minutes of calming down and talking things out we started our 2011 together with a promise to each other. We promised to grow both personally and with our relationship. We are both more alike than you could imagine and yet its not always good. We both have flaws and we have openly admitted them (at least our major ones) and plan to work together through them. These two photos are proof that no matter what. You can't destroy true friendship....a true bond between people who care about and love each other so much that even when something goes horribly wrong....they will still be there for you....it might take some time but they will be there.

These photos are our promise to each other. No matter what. We will be there.
But what happens when what seems to be a great start of the year quickly turns to tears not for just one person but for a whole family? Today, Jan. 3rd, Marks the last day I will see my RL brother in over a year. It is 3:30 in the morning and I have been sitting in the dark crying my eyes out for about 3 hours now and they just won't stop. My brother will fly out of St. Louis, Mo today heading to Hawaii for 3 months before he deploys to Afghanistan. For the first time since I can remember. I was not the one to go to him for a hug and tell him I love him.....he came to me and was the first to say I love you. That right there.....Broke my heart. What ifs are flying through my head and my heart. I'm nervous and scared, proud and worried, concerned and yet very grateful that my brother and so many men and women like him put their lives on the line for not only my freedom but for the freedom of everyone here in the USA. I know a lot of people are not fond of the war....hell....I'd be one of the first in line for saying they aren't fond of the war. But its not the troops who are causing it. They are going on orders to do so. They are going to defend and protect us. Those men and women that go over there deserve so much respect. I am forever indebted to my brother and all the other men and women of our military forces both here in the states and abroad.

Be Safe my brother. You will be in my heart, thoughts, and prayers every day.